Finding Happiness

Every New Year brings new hope for everyone. That is probably the reason why people make resolutions.

I had always been hopeful every year that the next year would be a better and a happier year ahead. My life is such a lonely journey and full of battles. I believe that I had enough hurts in this lifetime and that God may want to give me a taste of happiness I truly deserve.

I am overwhelmed with the response of visitors to this site. I am deeply touched when people see how I have come out of a hell of a situation in my life. I feel humbled when they congratulate me for being an inspiration to them and for what I have achieved. To tell you honestly, I still have lonely moments. I still cry in my aloneness. And whatever you feel and think I have achieved, it really doesn’t matter in that state of solitude.

I am an emotional soul and most songs make me cry because it moves me so much. One song though that never fails to draw my tears is a song I believe is tailor-made for me, “Warrior is A Child” by Gary Valenciano. It speaks about someone (a warrior) whom people perceive as a winner, unscathed and a survivor of many battles in life. Yet, in his solitude, he drops all the achievements and like a child runs to his heavenly Father who warmly embraces him.

I am just human and obviously not perfect. I get wounded along the way. What people do not really see is that I still struggle and get bruised. And it is my God, my heavenly Father, to whom I run to. I cry out my worries, I drop my sword and through his comforting love, warm embrace and faithful promises, He makes me whole again.

After my failed relationships, I had always hoped to find the “beautiful side of love” (borrowed from “When God Writes Your Love Story” by Eric and Leslie Ludy). I had always longed to be ‘complete’ though I am fully aware that my happiness should never be dependent on persons, places or circumstances, just on the knowledge that I am a beloved child of God. Now I realized that God is concerned too with that part of my life, all I have to do is let go of the helm I am holding on and let Him be the captain of my ship, no matter if he turns the ship 360 degrees! I just have to hold on to Him because He knows the very best for me.

Today, as I face another new year ahead, I have surrendered to God the endeavor of finding my happiness, the “something better” I had been looking for. For I truly believe that in God, in trusting Him completely, I am allowing myself to part of His wondrous plan!

Stay happy and have a Prosperous and Blessed New Year ahead!